aliveness

Aliveness is a daily process of giving over.
Of not reaching for the “answer” but allowing the flow of life to teach you what is here for you in this moment.

You still make choices. Important choices. But your mind is not the boss. Instead, you draw equal wisdom from your body, heart, mind, and spirit.

Aliveness is messy and unrelenting and doesn’t necessarily look like what you want it to look like. It has nothing to do with idealized images. It blows past shame, cultural constraints, and grandiosity. It is about living and loving the fullest expression of yourself, with nothing left out.

In doing so you will find the pathway to what you long for.

You

You have created a beautiful life. You are good at what you do and that has led to professional success. You have friends and family that matter. You have come through life’s ups and downs with intentionality and grace.

You are drawn to depth. To aliveness.

You are interested in the intersection of spirituality, the body, sexuality, and emotions.

You want to become the best human you can be. And you know the answers lie within you.

You have been in therapy, learned to meditate, visited energy healers, read the books, listened to the podcasts. You are interested in psychedelics and may have tried microdosing or some ceremonies.

And you are ready for more. You know in your bones there is more.

Me

The first time I saw a trading floor I knew I had to be there. I loved the aliveness - the chaos, the noise, the drive. I spent fifteen years in capital markets including time at RBC DS, Goldman Sachs, and Credit Suisse.

My foundation had cracks, however, and entering therapy after witnessing 9/11 changed my life. Year after year I began to have my own voice. To understand myself and have compassion for me and my journey. I trained to become a therapist and began practicing in 2012.

Losing my son to PPROM in 2013 broke me and my healing journey deepened as I spent two years devoted to ayahuasca and somatic release. At the end of those years my former partner said to me “you’re not the same person.” He meant it in the best of ways. My nervous system could now tolerate life. Which meant that I could live.

I resigned as a therapist in 2020.

I continue to be devoted to aliveness and the inner work that goes alongside this commitment to the juiciest possible life. When we expand we expand in all the directions. The ability to feel all of our feelings and be fully present to all of our experiences is aliveness.

For more read about my approach here.

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